it would have been nice if something nice and good happened today.

but nothing did. 

everything today was all negative.. so it’s hard for me to think of something optimistic. 

all the negative thoughts that were buried in my cranium are now being dug out. 
past crap.
possible future crap,
does it matter? it’s all crap.
crap i cried over, crap i will cry over, and crap i’m crying over now.
i feel emotionally unstable.  

please please PLEASE give me something to smile about.